执子之手 / Holding one’s hand
03 November 2020.
It was my second day of leave. And I decided to take a slower pace today.
Waking up at around 5 am in the morning as usual, I began to meditate for 20 minutes, which seemed to be a long time, and yet, I couldn’t recall what was in my mind for the whole session.
Lots of time was wasted doing what I did not know, till it was close to lunch before I stepped out of the house and came to Rochor, the place where worshippers gathered at the famous Kuan Yin temple.
Due to the fact that COVID19 is not over yet, restrictions are still in place and there was a long queue of people outside the temple, waiting for let their wishes be heard by Kuan Yin.
I did not wish to join the queue, so I stood outside the temple and prayed and sent my blessings to my loved ones before I headed towards Sim Lim Square to do my window shopping.
Then I came to OG departmental store and purchased mini briefs, ankle socks and a waist pouch and headed home, feeling satisfied.
The hour long journey in the bus wasn’t boring at all. With my favourite songs playing in my ears, I looked out of the window to see the scenery outside whizzing past my sight.
In most spiritual and self improvement books, it is taught that alternative to meditation is to find a hobby that can allow one to focus and put many other things aside.
For me, sketching is my next best alternative.
And so I did.
It is true that practice can make one improve his skills, and it is apparent for me. I used to worry that whatever I draw may not be able to show it to the others, but today, there were times where I didn’t even have to draw lines and boxes and I could start sketching something that matched 70 percent of what I wanted to draw.
Spiritual and self improvement books have also stated that there are a few things human should always avoid doing before sleep and immediately after waking up. And some of these things are swiping the phone through the social media, or turning on the TV and watch / listen to news.
The reason is very simple, the information on social media and news are mostly negative and it affects a man’s sleep or the start of the day.
Therefore, I picked something that is very calming and loving to draw today, especially after two days of pondering over the ugliness of this society and world. I chose to see the world from a different perspective, reminding myself that there is love in this world, and therefore, warmth.
It is a picture of a man and woman holding hands. And the way the hands are held radiates a level of tenderness, love, faith and trust. There is a Chinese saying that goes: Holding your hand and take care of you for life.
It is so lovingly beautiful.
And it just happened that my colleague in the department just got married, so I put her name and her husband’s name onto the picture and sent it out to her, giving her my blessings.
There is love and warmth in this world, and while I may not get to enjoy them totally, but as long as my friends and family are well and my loved one is living life happily, I am contented.
I have always known that letting go is easier said than done, and it is very rare and overnight thing where one can let go of something that he holds dearly in the heart.
Same applies to me.
But I will continue to move on alone, continue to let go, hoping to attain the state of emptiness one day.