执子之手 / Holding one’s hand

2020年11月3日。

仍然是半晴半阴的一天。

请假的第二天,我决定更从容地度过这一天。

一如既往的在早晨靠近5时便醒了过来,然后摸黑爬下床,盘起双腿,开始静坐。

20分钟似慢实快地就这样过去了,也不知道在静坐里是否获得了些许心里的宁静。

这边东一拉,那边西一扯,从容不迫地把时间消耗掉,才轻装上路来到了四马路的观音堂。

由于疫情仍在持续,公众场所都尽量限制人群的结合,尤其是善男信女最喜欢的祈愿福地。

望着长长的人龙,选择了在观音堂门口诚恳地为亲朋戚友祈愿,便来到了森林大厦随处走走,浏览浏览。

基本上什么都不缺的我,当让是空手进入,再空手而出。

跟着便来到奥奇商场,又再里边逛了一圈,这次可还有收获,买了几件底裤,三双袜子以及一个腰袋,才搭上一個小時多的车程回家。

一路上无事,就只是听着歌,望着车窗外的景色飞快的倒退,忘了自己究竟想了些什么。

灵性书籍上总是说,一个人要得到心里的平静,就一定要找一个可以专注的嗜好来做。在那种情况下,当精神得以专注,无形中,红尘中的纷纷扰扰都会随之而去。

除了静坐之外,对于我来说,画画就是另一种平心静气的活动了。

于是,回到家后便打开了我的画纸,铅笔盒,以及网络上看到的一张图片,开始了画画。

练习真的可以让一个人进步的,想以前的自己想要画一张图,总是有点忐忑,害怕画出来的东西无法见人。

然而今天的我,偶尔可以不画格子,也可以画出一张还可以见人的图片。

灵性书籍也时常说,人在睡前醒后,最不应该做的就有几件事,譬如刷社交平台,或是打开电视听/看新闻,因为这些平台与新闻,有太多太多的负面讯息了,导致人们的心里无法得到些许的安宁。

缘由于此,今天刻意找了比较温馨的图片作为我的最新作品。

这几天想着红尘的烦恼以及社会的龌龊,是时候把视线转移,从另一个角度去看这个世界,提醒自己只要有爱,温情不失。

那是一个男人与女人牵手的图片,很温馨,很亲切,有一份执子之手,与子同老的温情。

恰巧部门里的同事刚刚结婚,于是便把这个作品,附上她俩的名字,发了给她,祝福她俩可以白头偕老,百年好合。

人间仍有温情,虽然不属于我,但能够看见身边的人过得幸福,想起自己的亲朋戚友安然无恙,以及自己的挚爱过着美满快乐的日子,心足矣。

一直都知道,放下这两个字说来容易,做来难,极少人能够在一夜之间就彻底的放下多年牢牢捉住不放的执念。

我也不例外。

继续上路,继续一个人走,继续放下,继续向往达到一切皆空的境界。

03.11.2020

03 November 2020.

It was my second day of leave. And I decided to take a slower pace today.

Waking up at around 5 am in the morning as usual, I began to meditate for 20 minutes, which seemed to be a long time, and yet, I couldn’t recall what was in my mind for the whole session.

Lots of time was wasted doing what I did not know, till it was close to lunch before I stepped out of the house and came to Rochor, the place where worshippers gathered at the famous Kuan Yin temple.

Due to the fact that COVID19 is not over yet, restrictions are still in place and there was a long queue of people outside the temple, waiting for let their wishes be heard by Kuan Yin.

I did not wish to join the queue, so I stood outside the temple and prayed and sent my blessings to my loved ones before I headed towards Sim Lim Square to do my window shopping.

Then I came to OG departmental store and purchased mini briefs, ankle socks and a waist pouch and headed home, feeling satisfied.

The hour long journey in the bus wasn’t boring at all. With my favourite songs playing in my ears, I looked out of the window to see the scenery outside whizzing past my sight.

In most spiritual and self improvement books, it is taught that alternative to meditation is to find a hobby that can allow one to focus and put many other things aside.

For me, sketching is my next best alternative.

And so I did.

It is true that practice can make one improve his skills, and it is apparent for me. I used to worry that whatever I draw may not be able to show it to the others, but today, there were times where I didn’t even have to draw lines and boxes and I could start sketching something that matched 70 percent of what I wanted to draw.

Spiritual and self improvement books have also stated that there are a few things human should always avoid doing before sleep and immediately after waking up. And some of these things are swiping the phone through the social media, or turning on the TV and watch / listen to news.

The reason is very simple, the information on social media and news are mostly negative and it affects a man’s sleep or the start of the day.

Therefore, I picked something that is very calming and loving to draw today, especially after two days of pondering over the ugliness of this society and world. I chose to see the world from a different perspective, reminding myself that there is love in this world, and therefore, warmth.

It is a picture of a man and woman holding hands. And the way the hands are held radiates a level of tenderness, love, faith and trust. There is a Chinese saying that goes: Holding your hand and take care of you for life.

It is so lovingly beautiful.

And it just happened that my colleague in the department just got married, so I put her name and her husband’s name onto the picture and sent it out to her, giving her my blessings.

There is love and warmth in this world, and while I may not get to enjoy them totally, but as long as my friends and family are well and my loved one is living life happily, I am contented.

I have always known that letting go is easier said than done, and it is very rare and overnight thing where one can let go of something that he holds dearly in the heart.

Same applies to me.

But I will continue to move on alone, continue to let go, hoping to attain the state of emptiness one day.

03.11.2020

Francis Lim

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