Detach, I should

On 23 April 2018, a long lost beloved friend suddenly got in touch with me again, and my life began to blossom with beautiful memories, forgetting that this world is made out of duality.
Where there is coming together, there will be departure;
Where there is happiness, there will be sadness.
Where there is a cause, there is an outcome.
Only if we are able to detach ourselves from either side of the duality, will we be able to attain peace in our mind, body and soul.
That’s what the middle path is, if I am not wrong.
But I am just another man, so I can’t detach myself from this world yet.
Then came May 2018  and I was in Hong Kong to implement a solution for a customer.
And on this very evening, the team went for a dinner with the customers in Kwun Tong, Hong Kong.
I have never enjoyed such entertainment activities in my whole life in a corporate world, hence I didn’t enjoy the meal.
The only things I enjoyed were the scenic views surrounding me.
Being a photography enthusiast then, I did not forget to bring my camera for some snap shots.
As I stood outside the restaurant, leaving behind the “entertainment”, I tried to be as present as I could, enjoying the beautiful scenes.
Then I captured this very beautiful scene which I liked very much when I edited it into a black and white picture.
I’ve not been taking pictures for a long time. And my Adobe Lightroom and Photoshop were sitting in my notebook for a long time too.
I’ve been thinking that one day I will pick up my camera again and start editing photos. This day never come, and one day, I just decided that my digital photography journey has come to an end.
The “one day” that I have been thinking about has caused me to waste the monthly subscription which I paid for nothing.
I terminated the service a few weeks back, and told myself that one day I will organise and delete all my digital raw files.
So I did even though I had some attachments to those raw files.
Then I cleared all clothes that I have not touched for the last one year, unsubscribed from Adobe Photoshop, Lightroom and Premiere Pro, organised and cleaned my external hard disk.
I am honestly not very attached to these stuffs, but more of attached to the feeling of “one day I might need them again”.
Detachment, something that I am practising on recently. Or I should say, something that I have learned and tried to practise and failed many times.
I am still trying and I need more time.
Hence, I decided to start small first.
There are more to go – my gimbal, my camera, my hi fi systems, etc.
Detach, I shall and I am now sufficient.
When something I desire happens, it is a bonus to me.
When it doesn’t happen, it is given.
The silent acceptance of all these bonuses and given provides certain level of peace to my mind at times.
As I chanted Heart Sutra last night, I imagined myself being detached from all material stuffs.
Eventually, I hope to detach from all things and walk my path silently, alone, as I know that nobody will walk with me and nobody can.
I shall give, but expect no thing.
05.12.2020
Francis Lim

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