Undeniably, the power of love cannot be underestimated. The love for money gives us the determination to work hard in life… The love for power gives us the courage to fight… The love for status makes us crave for attention… The love for our work generates quality output… The love for adrenaline makes us try all the dangerous stuffs… The […]
About four to five years back, one of my projects had some challenges and there wasn’t anything I could do about it. At that point in time, it seemed almost impossible to overcome the challenges without asking for budget from the higher management and yet I wasn’t able to justify it. Who would know that four to five years later, […]
即将岁末。 时光再荏苒，总会留下点滴的足迹在脑海里，尤其是较为深刻的记忆。 今年是一个异常特别的一年，是我有记忆以来待在家里最多的一年。 记得近二十年前的那一场非典疫情曾引起世界的战战兢兢，却也没有象今年冠状疫情那么让人心有余悸。 至少我不记得新加坡有“封城”的经历，也没有尝试过在家上班的体验。 当冠状疫情在中国传得沸沸扬扬的时候，人们带着心痛与惊愕追逐着武汉的消息，没想到后来，病菌从大陆扩展到世界各地，许多国家都逃不了这一场瘟疫。 于是，一些国家跟随着中国实施封城计划，包括新加坡在内。 于是，新加坡人都似乎被软禁在家里，足足两个月才逐渐放开。 然而，时至今日，病菌仍然存在，口罩成为了出门的必需品。 其实，从来没有害怕过什么疫情，总觉得会来的总会来，再怎么防范都无补于事。 当然，仍然免不了会较为小心，却不曾感到惶恐。 星期天的下午，足足干了五个小时的家务。 说是五个小时有点太夸了，其实真正干活的时间也不过是两个小时多，更在休息当中怂恿母亲与我一起随着音乐的节奏跳起舞来，逗得这个得了失智症的母亲咯咯大笑， 望着母亲脸上岁月留下的条纹随着她的笑容蠕蠕而动，我自己都被感动了。 今天我丢掉了许多许多这些年来都没有碰过的“杂物”，感觉整个橱柜有点“焕然一新”，很是满足。 真的难以想象当初自己怎么会买了那么多废物储存在家里，任其积满了灰尘。 曾经看过也读过关于断、舍、离的视频与书籍，很向往那种极简主义的风格，仿佛生活不会被太多的人、事、物所负累。 但我知道自己在物质上的欲念仍然极强，想要抵达极简主义，是一段很遥远的旅程。 其实真正需要打扫的应该是累积在心里许多不必要的东西。 今年的事业并不是很顺利，除了时时与人争辩之外，一些项目也并没有顺利地完成，在这一方面对自己有点颇为不满。 然而，在另一个工作领域，我却享受着与他人分享我的经验与知识的乐趣，更从中获得了某些人的认可。 小我的那颗虚荣心也算是得到了无尽的满足。 十二月的天气让人感觉清爽，只是暴风雨来得太频繁了。 暴风雨似乎每日如期而至，把这个花园城市淋得湿漉漉的。 湿漉漉的街道，湿漉漉的公园，湿漉漉的游乐场，偶尔站在窗前望着窗外的雨帘，还会挑起湿漉漉的心情。 十二月的北风从来不曾让我失望过。 喜欢凉风扑面而来的感觉，仿佛清风在为我拂去所有不必要也不想要的思绪。 只是当气温降到摄氏二十四至二十六度，住在二十七楼的我，会忽然间被那一阵阵席卷而至的北风吹得瑟瑟发抖。 江晓小妹那天在三人组的“好命一族”群里发来消息，通知我们她又当实习生了，更说想念我们。 简简单单的四个字，渗入心里的是满满的温暖。 那份温暖在这冰凉的气候里显得格外珍贵。 感恩于人间有温情。 记得远在西方的挚友曾对我说她要回家了，回到东方来。 不知道她是否已经回到台湾了。 很挂念她，可是每每打开电脑想要给她写封信，却不知从何说起，从何落笔，唯有在心里默默地给她祝福。 还有已经三年没有见面的晓晓，也不再与她联系，只是偶尔看见她在我的博客留下点滴的足迹，倍感温馨。 最近又开始看一禅小和尚的视频了。 很喜欢这个小和尚，更喜欢他与师父的对话，每每让我深省。 想起来，自己好久没有去探讨与斟酌这些浅显却又难以实行的真理了。 明年究竟会是怎样的一年，不曾想过，也不敢去想。 这个世界的一切真的太难以捉摸，只好带着一颗“随缘”的心继续上路。 知足是乐——一直没有忘记一句佛界里的名言：我快乐并不是我拥有的多，而是我计较的少。 纵观当今社会，人们计较得太多了，因此每个人看似很富足，其实日常生活里都看得出许多人的担惊受怕，害怕无法在这个物欲横流的社会生存。 如果每个人都能够像一禅小和尚那么纯真，那么无邪，我想大家都会更快乐一些。 如果我能够像一禅小和尚那样闭着双眼躺在草地上，享受着那一刻的快乐，我想我的嘴角也会掀起一抹淡淡的微笑。 27.12.2020 林顺源
It’s Christmas day and I had no plan as usual. As I slowly sketched the little monk, I let my mind rested. Sketching didn’t seem to be as difficult as when I initially started, though there is still a lot of rooms for improvement. I wished for a peaceful and slow day and awaited for my movie time to come. […]
As I sat quietly on the meditation cushion with my eyes closed last night, I started to pray instead of focusing on my breath to be still. They were words of blessings with full of love, care and concern. I know not whether my prayers would be heard but I need to make myself believe that it will work. After […]
On 23 April 2018, a long lost beloved friend suddenly got in touch with me again, and my life began to blossom with beautiful memories, forgetting that this world is made out of duality. Where there is coming together, there will be departure; Where there is happiness, there will be sadness. Where there is a cause, there is an outcome. Only if we are able to detach ourselves from either side of the duality, will we be able to attain peace in our mind, body and soul. That’s what the middle path is, if I am not wrong. But I am just another man, so I can’t detach myself from this world yet. Then came May 2018 and I was in Hong Kong to implement a solution for a customer. And on this very evening, the team went for a dinner with the customers in Kwun Tong, Hong Kong. I have never enjoyed such entertainment activities in my whole life in a corporate world, hence I didn’t enjoy the meal. The only things I enjoyed were the scenic views surrounding me. Being a photography enthusiast then, I did not forget to bring my camera for some snap shots. As I stood outside the restaurant, leaving behind the “entertainment”, I tried to be as present as I could, enjoying the beautiful scenes. Then I captured this very beautiful scene which I liked very much when I edited it into a black and white picture. I’ve not been taking pictures for a long time. And my Adobe Lightroom and Photoshop were sitting in my notebook for a long time too. I’ve been thinking that one day I will pick up my camera again and start editing photos. This day never come, and one day, I just decided that my digital photography journey has come to an end. The “one day” that I have been thinking about has caused me to waste the monthly subscription which I paid for nothing. I terminated the service a few weeks back, and told myself that one day I will organise and delete all my digital raw files. So I did even though I had some attachments to those raw files. Then I cleared all clothes that I have not touched for the last one year, unsubscribed from Adobe Photoshop, Lightroom and Premiere Pro, […]
I can clearly remember that it was 02 January 2019. I was so desperate that I made a hard decision which created havoc and turmoil in my life. And when the next day came, I received another blow which shattered my heart and realised that I was walking alone. Then I began to feel lost in life, again. History repeated […]
当左手拇指的第一个关节开始僵硬与疼痛时，以为那是重复画画所带来的负面影响。 甚至，当问题慢慢慢慢地从拇指延伸到其他手指，仍然认为是画画的结果，便选择了休息一段日子。 可是后来，右手的五根手指的第一个关节都出现了同样的症状，我知道那已经与画画没有关系了。 坚持了好几个月，今天终于还是决定到诊所去看一下肩凝症，顺道看看十指的疼痛究竟从何惹来的。 其实，早已在网络搜寻并知道那可能是骨关节炎的症状了。 经过今天医生的诊断，果然不出我所料。 庆幸的是，这与画画无关，也就是说我仍然可以继续画画，继续挑战自己。 从昨夜开始，就已经开始第三次画江晓的俏像了，然而这一次则是用Procreate在平板上画的。 今天在诊所时无所事事，幸好带了iPad在身边，便开始用了三个小时的时间把她的头像完全的画好。 完成后，看上去似乎哪里不对，又看不出是哪里出错，与原照对比，仍然是似是而非，但比之前的两张有所进步，略感欣慰。 11.11.2020 林顺源 When I first felt the stiffness and slight pain on my left thumb, I thought it was due to too much drawing. And as the symptoms spread to the other fingers, I decided to take a break from drawing so as to let my fingers rest. But when […]
好想，给母亲写一封信，述说心底里最深的愧疚。 好想，给黄伯父一个承诺，不再让他亲爱的的孩子流泪了。 好想，把自己余生的精力，献给不那么幸福的人。 好想，就此一走了之，放下背负的所有包袱。 好想好想，也只能想想…… I wish to write a letter to mom, and tell her how much guilt I have towards her. I wish to promise uncle Wong, that I will not make his lovely child cry again. I wish to spend the rest of my life, on those less fortunate people. I wish that I can just let […]
