It’s Christmas day and I had no plan as usual. As I slowly sketched the little monk, I let my mind rested. Sketching didn’t seem to be as difficult as when I initially started, though there is still a lot of rooms for improvement. I wished for a peaceful and slow day and awaited for my movie time to come. […]
As I sat quietly on the meditation cushion with my eyes closed last night, I started to pray instead of focusing on my breath to be still. They were words of blessings with full of love, care and concern. I know not whether my prayers would be heard but I need to make myself believe that it will work. After […]
I can clearly remember that it was 02 January 2019. I was so desperate that I made a hard decision which created havoc and turmoil in my life. And when the next day came, I received another blow which shattered my heart and realised that I was walking alone. Then I began to feel lost in life, again. History repeated […]
My fastest sketch…. completed within an hour after I shut down my notebook… It is indeed a sketch, one that does not need to look real, but tells a story…. 昨天，遇见了现实生活中的岳不群，错，应该说是遇见了左冷禅，因为给予他越不群的名号简直是抬举了他。 看见那一滴最不可思议的鳄鱼泪，不止是感到不寒而栗，也感到心灰意冷。 原来，睁着眼睛说瞎话的本来面目就是这样子的。 或许，我真的只听了片面之词，但是自己所曾经听过关于他的故事的以及今年的亲身经历，真的无法不相信C就是这样的一个人。 正所谓无独有偶，空穴来风，一切的一切不可能无风起浪的。 于是，心里对C的褒贬更加地加重。 我知道这对于我的灵性成长是有阻碍的，但我无法克制自己对他的鄙视。 下班后，选择了即刻关上电脑，把精神专注于画画上。 这几天的日记或许带给一些好友一丝担忧与难解的疑惑，究竟为何我最近的言词似乎显得很不开心。 不敢说自己在蜕变，却可以说我一直都在红尘里寻找着那个真实的我，那个勇敢的我。 听到这句话，奥斯卡小姐会对我说：不要找，因为一切都是虚妄的，更何况那个所谓的“我”便是阻碍一个人修行的我执。 然而，体贴的她并没有多说什么，只是给我留言，给予关怀。 总觉得这个世界上如果有一个人能够看穿我的心，那必定是奥斯卡小姐。 曾经也觉得在她面前，我似乎是赤裸裸的，因为她仿佛读懂了我的不开心。 昨天，也收到了一个久违的晓晓的留言，简简单单的一句：“hug”，确实温暖了我的心。 毕竟，我们已经好久没有联系了。 没想到对她说了一声“谢谢”后，又再换来一句“always there for you”。 无言以对，仍然只能对她说一声”谢谢“。 晓晓以及另一个挚爱虚拟的拥抱无疑挑起了我想要画这很温馨的图片，想要让一丝丝的感动与柔情填满我的心。 一个拥抱，紧紧的抱着，其实带给人的是一份很真挚，真浓烈的情感。 一个拥抱，传递着一丝丝，一滴滴的爱意在双手里。 一个拥抱，给人更多的温情，更多的希望，相信人间并不是那么可怕的。 一个拥抱，给人无数的安慰与守护，是彼此间一种无言的承诺。 这些日子来，没有一天好睡过，每每在半夜里醒来，在床上翻来覆去，久久无法入眠。 我情愿相信这只是一个过渡期，是一个让我的心灵成长的机会，也是一个让我更懂得人生的旅程。 安慰的是，在不断的练习下，我能够更快地把一幅画画好，就这张图来说，我只用了少过一个小时的时间完成，结果还颇满意的。 在这一次次的茫然中，我依然可以找到一个安静的港口，让我可以安祥地画画，这对我来说是一种福分。 […]
My dearest, Perhaps you are not aware, I am feeling very tired, extremely tired from loving you. The rain poured heavily today, creating a blurry world as I looked out of the window. And that triggered numerous thoughts within me. I don’t seem to understand this world anymore, just like I couldn’t see your world clearly. I have alway believed […]
这张画，我画了三次，而这最后一次是最满意的。 因为原照是很清晰的，所以我可以很仔细地把每一个细节都画上。 可是毕竟不是真的画家，能够得到这样的效果，我已经很自豪了。 画画，画错了，画得不满意，总可以重来。 如果人生也可以这样子的重来，那该有多好，只是我相信当人们真的可以重来的话，就不会懂得如何去珍惜每一个决定了。 而事实上，尽管我们可以从失败中，错误中以及错过中重来，愿意改正，也未必能够得到别人的给予的机会与谅解。 这就是最悲哀的现实…… 25.10.2020 林顺源 This is the third sketch of the same portrait that I have done and it is the one that I am most satisfied with. As the original picture is very clear, I was able to focus on each and every individual details and drew them in. Even though it isn’t an […]
I broke the heart after all. It turned out to be fairly easy. Just a few crooked lines and the heart began to show signs of cracking. And in real life, that’s how fragile a human heart is, especially when it comes to feelings and emotions. On the contrary, saying goodbye is never easy, especially so when there is deep […]
John Coffey, a huge man with a simple mind and a kind heart. He had the gift of god (as claimed by Paul Edgecomb) to heal others’ illnesses and he did it to Paul, to a mouse and to a lady who had brain tumor. John also had the power of seeing another man’s heart and deeds when he touched […]
I have never been truly bald until recently when I ditched my electric shaver. When I first shaved my head in 2018 for Hair for Hope, it was like a wish came true, yet it was for a good cause. I have always wished to be bald for reason(s) I do not know of until today. But somehow, I found […]
