A new plan?

I have wasted the whole day doing nothing yesterday. It was a wet Saturday as the rain started to pour from just before lunch till evening. And as I spent hours looking at YouTube videos on 8 brocades exercise (八段锦), it seemed like I was just watching and watching and watching, there’s no action taken until finally I decided to […]

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Cycling Alone……

It was a bright sunny Sunday morning. I looked out of the window and then looked at my new bike. For days, I’ve been planning on National Parks’ and Goole’s map to see where I could go in this small island to explore new cycling routes in this uneventful lifestyle of mine, instead of repeating the same old routines at […]

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内观

2021年3月28日。 晴中带阴。 没有风的白天,仿佛就像泡在温室里一般,感觉闷热。 母亲的失智症每况愈下,为了减轻自己的心理与身理上的压力,逐决定聘请佣人代为照顾母亲的起居生活。 于是今天忙了一整天整理屋子里的废物,腾出空间让家里的新成员有个睡觉的地方。 她的名字是Yesiani,来自印尼,在台湾当过数年的佣人,因此懂得以中文沟通。 不知道这是不是明智之举,但至少我作出了决定。 旁晚,弟弟一如既往地把母亲接到他的家里用餐,我则在用完晚饭后骑着自行车稍微运动一下,让自己的身与心都放空。 因冠状疫情,全球掀起了一股骑自行车的热潮,导致市场上的自行车有许多都缺货。 我算是例外,不是因为疫情,而是有一天看见自己的肚腩越来越大,衣裤渐渐显得紧绷,骤然察觉自己的缺乏运动。 本着作稍微轻松一点的运动的念头,买了一台自行车,开始了我的自得“骑”乐。 有一天, 忙里偷闲地骑着自行车探路,不经意发现沿着运河的步道竟有另一番风景。 放眼望去,那一片晴空万里的蓝天,完美无瑕,使河面也披上了一件蓝蓝的衣裳。当那偶尔的波光粼粼以及被夕阳染黄的建筑一一地投入我的眼帘,顿时感觉好不美丽。 在那一刻,在这里土生土长的我的心里,泛起一股莫名的感动,没想到新加坡也有这样的美景。 星期五那天,傍晚5时1刻下班,趁着父亲在家,而且天色还早,决定挑战自己的体力,用了两个小时骑了27公里,感觉无比的舒服。 沿途中仍然没有忘记把经过的美景摄入手机里,就像往昔一般与朋友们分享。 尤记得往年(除了去年),我都会出国旅行,就为了欣赏异国风情以及捕捉异地的良辰美景,何曾想过发掘新加坡那热情奔放的艳丽。 许多人和我一样,总是往外看,新加坡人到各地旅游,外国人却往这个热带小岛奔赴,完全忘了美景就在自个儿家门。 而我,也趁此提醒自己:幸福与快乐就在自己的心里,与外界的人、事、物完全无关…… 28.03.2021 林顺源

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Changing my outlook / 改变形象

It was a matter of a soft touch, and the message was sent across the wireless internet from a phone to another. Such communication through the wireless world has become a norm, which sometimes seem to make the world feels cold. While we try our best to inject feelings and emotions into the messages, either with lovely words or emoticons, […]

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Finished Art Piece

It didn’t take too long for me to finish my “art piece”. It isn’t perfect, but I absolutely love it. It is definitely one of my most satisfying art work. I am comforted. As I looked at the handsome guy on the paper, I smiled with admiration. Hmmm… this is one hell of a guy who can bring smiles upon […]

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Words are my only companion

23 March 2020. It is time for journaling again, and as I sat down in front of my iPad Pro and wonder what to write, the title “Words are my only companion” just came to my mind. Yes, indeed they are. For years, they have never deserted me, they have allowed me to express my thoughts, my feelings and my […]

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How to meditate…?

22 March 2020. Dad had a relapse of his mental illness. Tuesday night, he suddenly told me that he started to get worried and fearful for no reason. His mind couldn’t stop thinking and he feels miserable. I asked him what he was thinking about and what he was fearful of, he couldn’t articulate and the only thing he said […]

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Can you remember me…?

I received a Skype message this evening: “Hi Francis, this is Harriet, can you remember me? We attended DILO (day in a life of… another colleague) together last year…” Searching through my memories, I couldn’t recall who this person is and how she looks like. I chose to be honest with her and told her I have no memory at […]

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