About four to five years back, one of my projects had some challenges and there wasn’t anything I could do about it. At that point in time, it seemed almost impossible to overcome the challenges without asking for budget from the higher management and yet I wasn’t able to justify it. Who would know that four to five years later, […]
It’s Christmas day and I had no plan as usual. As I slowly sketched the little monk, I let my mind rested. Sketching didn’t seem to be as difficult as when I initially started, though there is still a lot of rooms for improvement. I wished for a peaceful and slow day and awaited for my movie time to come. […]
On 23 April 2018, a long lost beloved friend suddenly got in touch with me again, and my life began to blossom with beautiful memories, forgetting that this world is made out of duality. Where there is coming together, there will be departure; Where there is happiness, there will be sadness. Where there is a cause, there is an outcome. Only if we are able to detach ourselves from either side of the duality, will we be able to attain peace in our mind, body and soul. That’s what the middle path is, if I am not wrong. But I am just another man, so I can’t detach myself from this world yet. Then came May 2018 and I was in Hong Kong to implement a solution for a customer. And on this very evening, the team went for a dinner with the customers in Kwun Tong, Hong Kong. I have never enjoyed such entertainment activities in my whole life in a corporate world, hence I didn’t enjoy the meal. The only things I enjoyed were the scenic views surrounding me. Being a photography enthusiast then, I did not forget to bring my camera for some snap shots. As I stood outside the restaurant, leaving behind the “entertainment”, I tried to be as present as I could, enjoying the beautiful scenes. Then I captured this very beautiful scene which I liked very much when I edited it into a black and white picture. I’ve not been taking pictures for a long time. And my Adobe Lightroom and Photoshop were sitting in my notebook for a long time too. I’ve been thinking that one day I will pick up my camera again and start editing photos. This day never come, and one day, I just decided that my digital photography journey has come to an end. The “one day” that I have been thinking about has caused me to waste the monthly subscription which I paid for nothing. I terminated the service a few weeks back, and told myself that one day I will organise and delete all my digital raw files. So I did even though I had some attachments to those raw files. Then I cleared all clothes that I have not touched for the last one year, unsubscribed from Adobe Photoshop, Lightroom and Premiere Pro, […]
I can clearly remember that it was 02 January 2019. I was so desperate that I made a hard decision which created havoc and turmoil in my life. And when the next day came, I received another blow which shattered my heart and realised that I was walking alone. Then I began to feel lost in life, again. History repeated […]
当左手拇指的第一个关节开始僵硬与疼痛时，以为那是重复画画所带来的负面影响。 甚至，当问题慢慢慢慢地从拇指延伸到其他手指，仍然认为是画画的结果，便选择了休息一段日子。 可是后来，右手的五根手指的第一个关节都出现了同样的症状，我知道那已经与画画没有关系了。 坚持了好几个月，今天终于还是决定到诊所去看一下肩凝症，顺道看看十指的疼痛究竟从何惹来的。 其实，早已在网络搜寻并知道那可能是骨关节炎的症状了。 经过今天医生的诊断，果然不出我所料。 庆幸的是，这与画画无关，也就是说我仍然可以继续画画，继续挑战自己。 从昨夜开始，就已经开始第三次画江晓的俏像了，然而这一次则是用Procreate在平板上画的。 今天在诊所时无所事事，幸好带了iPad在身边，便开始用了三个小时的时间把她的头像完全的画好。 完成后，看上去似乎哪里不对，又看不出是哪里出错，与原照对比，仍然是似是而非，但比之前的两张有所进步，略感欣慰。 11.11.2020 林顺源 When I first felt the stiffness and slight pain on my left thumb, I thought it was due to too much drawing. And as the symptoms spread to the other fingers, I decided to take a break from drawing so as to let my fingers rest. But when […]
It was a matter of a soft touch, and the message was sent across the wireless internet from a phone to another. Such communication through the wireless world has become a norm, which sometimes seem to make the world feels cold. While we try our best to inject feelings and emotions into the messages, either with lovely words or emoticons, […]
My fastest sketch…. completed within an hour after I shut down my notebook… It is indeed a sketch, one that does not need to look real, but tells a story…. 昨天，遇见了现实生活中的岳不群，错，应该说是遇见了左冷禅，因为给予他越不群的名号简直是抬举了他。 看见那一滴最不可思议的鳄鱼泪，不止是感到不寒而栗，也感到心灰意冷。 原来，睁着眼睛说瞎话的本来面目就是这样子的。 或许，我真的只听了片面之词，但是自己所曾经听过关于他的故事的以及今年的亲身经历，真的无法不相信C就是这样的一个人。 正所谓无独有偶，空穴来风，一切的一切不可能无风起浪的。 于是，心里对C的褒贬更加地加重。 我知道这对于我的灵性成长是有阻碍的，但我无法克制自己对他的鄙视。 下班后，选择了即刻关上电脑，把精神专注于画画上。 这几天的日记或许带给一些好友一丝担忧与难解的疑惑，究竟为何我最近的言词似乎显得很不开心。 不敢说自己在蜕变，却可以说我一直都在红尘里寻找着那个真实的我，那个勇敢的我。 听到这句话，奥斯卡小姐会对我说：不要找，因为一切都是虚妄的，更何况那个所谓的“我”便是阻碍一个人修行的我执。 然而，体贴的她并没有多说什么，只是给我留言，给予关怀。 总觉得这个世界上如果有一个人能够看穿我的心，那必定是奥斯卡小姐。 曾经也觉得在她面前，我似乎是赤裸裸的，因为她仿佛读懂了我的不开心。 昨天，也收到了一个久违的晓晓的留言，简简单单的一句：“hug”，确实温暖了我的心。 毕竟，我们已经好久没有联系了。 没想到对她说了一声“谢谢”后，又再换来一句“always there for you”。 无言以对，仍然只能对她说一声”谢谢“。 晓晓以及另一个挚爱虚拟的拥抱无疑挑起了我想要画这很温馨的图片，想要让一丝丝的感动与柔情填满我的心。 一个拥抱，紧紧的抱着，其实带给人的是一份很真挚，真浓烈的情感。 一个拥抱，传递着一丝丝，一滴滴的爱意在双手里。 一个拥抱，给人更多的温情，更多的希望，相信人间并不是那么可怕的。 一个拥抱，给人无数的安慰与守护，是彼此间一种无言的承诺。 这些日子来，没有一天好睡过，每每在半夜里醒来，在床上翻来覆去，久久无法入眠。 我情愿相信这只是一个过渡期，是一个让我的心灵成长的机会，也是一个让我更懂得人生的旅程。 安慰的是，在不断的练习下，我能够更快地把一幅画画好，就这张图来说，我只用了少过一个小时的时间完成，结果还颇满意的。 在这一次次的茫然中，我依然可以找到一个安静的港口，让我可以安祥地画画，这对我来说是一种福分。 […]
2020年11月3日。 仍然是半晴半阴的一天。 请假的第二天，我决定更从容地度过这一天。 一如既往的在早晨靠近5时便醒了过来，然后摸黑爬下床，盘起双腿，开始静坐。 20分钟似慢实快地就这样过去了，也不知道在静坐里是否获得了些许心里的宁静。 这边东一拉，那边西一扯，从容不迫地把时间消耗掉，才轻装上路来到了四马路的观音堂。 由于疫情仍在持续，公众场所都尽量限制人群的结合，尤其是善男信女最喜欢的祈愿福地。 望着长长的人龙，选择了在观音堂门口诚恳地为亲朋戚友祈愿，便来到了森林大厦随处走走，浏览浏览。 基本上什么都不缺的我，当让是空手进入，再空手而出。 跟着便来到奥奇商场，又再里边逛了一圈，这次可还有收获，买了几件底裤，三双袜子以及一个腰袋，才搭上一個小時多的车程回家。 一路上无事，就只是听着歌，望着车窗外的景色飞快的倒退，忘了自己究竟想了些什么。 灵性书籍上总是说，一个人要得到心里的平静，就一定要找一个可以专注的嗜好来做。在那种情况下，当精神得以专注，无形中，红尘中的纷纷扰扰都会随之而去。 除了静坐之外，对于我来说，画画就是另一种平心静气的活动了。 于是，回到家后便打开了我的画纸，铅笔盒，以及网络上看到的一张图片，开始了画画。 练习真的可以让一个人进步的，想以前的自己想要画一张图，总是有点忐忑，害怕画出来的东西无法见人。 然而今天的我，偶尔可以不画格子，也可以画出一张还可以见人的图片。 灵性书籍也时常说，人在睡前醒后，最不应该做的就有几件事，譬如刷社交平台，或是打开电视听/看新闻，因为这些平台与新闻，有太多太多的负面讯息了，导致人们的心里无法得到些许的安宁。 缘由于此，今天刻意找了比较温馨的图片作为我的最新作品。 这几天想着红尘的烦恼以及社会的龌龊，是时候把视线转移，从另一个角度去看这个世界，提醒自己只要有爱，温情不失。 那是一个男人与女人牵手的图片，很温馨，很亲切，有一份执子之手，与子同老的温情。 恰巧部门里的同事刚刚结婚，于是便把这个作品，附上她俩的名字，发了给她，祝福她俩可以白头偕老，百年好合。 人间仍有温情，虽然不属于我，但能够看见身边的人过得幸福，想起自己的亲朋戚友安然无恙，以及自己的挚爱过着美满快乐的日子，心足矣。 一直都知道，放下这两个字说来容易，做来难，极少人能够在一夜之间就彻底的放下多年牢牢捉住不放的执念。 我也不例外。 继续上路，继续一个人走，继续放下，继续向往达到一切皆空的境界。 03.11.2020 03 November 2020. It was my second day of leave. And I decided to take a slower pace today. Waking up at around 5 am in the morning as usual, I began to meditate […]
Sunday evening, the sky was like the greyish mess in my sketches as I left my house. I thought it would pour soon, but it didn’t. Roaming aimlessly, I ended up in the mall with full of people and was suddenly struck by a sense of loneliness. I thought that I have already gotten use to being alone (that is […]
