Understanding nothingness…

12 April 2020. Sunday. The world seems to have come to a halt slowly, as economy starts to slow down, non essential businesses are closed, many countries implemented lockdown which affected most people’s way of living. And Singapore is not spared too. It’s the fifth day of Singapore’s Circuit Breaker, kind of a lockdown similar to other countries. The number […]

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Be myself…

06 April 2020. In Chinese, there is a saying that goes: true friendship will show during crisis time. The above statement is more applicable to individuals going through some kind of hardship and begin to see the true colours of other people. I think for every proverb, every wisdom, and every popular quote exists for a reason and there is […]

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Too tired to write anything

05 April 2020. Sunday. Today, I am too tired to write anything. I guess these two quotes express my thoughts the most today. “I prefer loneliness over fake company” (errr.. I thought “prefer” should always follow by “to”?) “Arguing with a fool is like killing mosquito on your cheek. You might kill it or not, but you end up slapping […]

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Love fills my heart…

04 April 2020. Saturday. “Be with someone who loves you harder on the days when you can’t love yourself.” Somehow, when I saw this quote on YouTube, I just love it very much. So I decided to sketch the Buddha face I saw on YouTube that comes with this quote. I’m not sure if this is really a quote from […]

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I feel a sense of gratitude

03 April 2020. Perhaps I know the quote well: “Distance never kills a relation. Closeness never builds a relation. It’s the caring of one’s feelings that builds faith and maintains a relation.” I’ve had close relationship with people from afar. It was my care and concern that built the faith and maintained the relationship. But as we got closer, the […]

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Fools Day

01 April 2020. It’s April Fool’s day. The world seems more solemn than in the past years as the COVID-19 continues to haunt the hearts of the people where there are huge outbreaks. But to say that we are all fools isn’t far from truth as well, for only fools will get stressed and frustrated over matters that don’t really […]

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Dear me: You have done your best…

Picture and quote from YouTube Dear me, Recently, you seem to have forgotten what you have learned these two years. You allowed many negative thoughts to fill your mind — thoughts about your manager, thoughts about your co-workers, thoughts about the whole situation in your surrounding right now. But have you considered that these are people, things and situations that […]

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I have the relationship…

27 March 2020. “You have the relationships…” When I first heard this statement, I didn’t know was I supposed to take that as a compliment or not. I am pretty sure that I am the odd one out in the department, one who is most rebellious, one who does not suck up to the management, and one who is a solo player, lack of teamwork. But when things went into a mess, and I am needed to help in managing the situation, I was told: “you have the relationships with the commercial team…” I think that was the most unexpected reason I have ever heard. I know that this is a realistic and cruel world. Everyone is with everyone because we have common interest. Benefits are what most people are looking for, be it monetary, power, status or even feelings. We come together as colleagues, teammates, friends and lovers because we gain something out of it — benefits, recognition, pleasure, a place to let go, a harbour to take shelter and many other reasons. But when the thing that we are looking for is no longer needed, we turn and walk away. I am one of them, that is a fact. And yet, I do not wish to be treated like a fool such that when I am needed temporarily, I am remembered. And when things go well, I am forgotten. Yet, I am being treated that way too, and […]

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